


still feeling under the weather. and outside, songkran has started — thai new year. the streets are loud with water fights, pools, and laughter. but last year, this celebration hurt me deeply. I had panic attacks, felt so unsafe, and ended up withdrawing from people for a long time. I’m not ready to go through that again. so this year, my plan is simple: stay home, rest, and protect my peace. it’s my third day in — it’s quiet, and weirdly comforting.